Saturday, January 27, 2007

Saturday, 27 January 2007

Went to collect newspapers and OLD & weird stuff which includes funny things like baby chair to 10001 toys..Quite an interesting experience.. exciting things started from morning when we went to teck whye central for breakfast and GuiDeng's van got blocked by the MERC lah.. than we did or rather he did the most natural thing of horning..i mean tats common sense lah.. we couldn't possibly go round finding ppl and ask," By any chance do u own a (insert vulgarity) black merz?" ..well apparently some pigs are still in their lala land and one of them showed their appreciation for waking them up wif an egg.. well lucky i was quite a distance away if not i might juz kena lor...

After which we started work and collected newspapers and beds, computers, washing machine and a lot of funny stuff..haha.. quite a fun experience .. from wat i heard at the end of the day we earned 900 bucks .. not bad for one day but still hv to work hard i suppose.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Tuesday,23 January 2007(G)

Sick , sick, sick... I am down with the FLU!!! Nasal fluid is just flowing out of me via my nose, body temperature is still trying its best to beat the all time high record, my voice sounds funny and talking is a chore for me now... Just feel terrible!!!! To top it up, had a sort of heated argument recently, over smth thats apparently quite insignificant to me seriously. Wonder what really drove me to get upset over it..haha...am i just too sick that lost my control? Or is there something else.. Just realised that i m one who cannot hate anyone, and as a result, i hate everything else thats related to the person. As its said, hatred is nothing but the coward's revenge for being intimidated, i must agree that i m the coward this time round i suppose, intimidated by a loss of something? haha.. i wonder... Anyway, never knew i hav caring friends like mk until recently. Special thanks to mk , for being so nice as to ask me to stay home and rest and will lend me his notes to copy the next day when i m sick, even though he is also sick. Thanks man! Much appreciated! A blessing in disguise i suppose, found a true fren frm some shitty illness.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Wednesday, 17 January 2007(G)

I just realised that it takes good memory to become a bus driver lah. A few days ago, i was on board a bus to go home. Was trying my very best to doze off to no avail. End up staring out into the dark road. Then suddenly the bus stopped at a bus stop. From what i see there is noone at the bus stop and the bus stopping sign is like not on. Was still in a wondering mode, when the bus driver walked out of his seat. Then i thought, " Dammit.. of all time the (insert profanity) bus have to break down now ..what the (insert vulgarity) (another vulgarity) . Lucky i have bus concession if not i think i will just shred the bus driver alive." But to my surprise instead of walkin out of the bus by the front door , the bus driver walked all the way to the back and confronted a sleepy passenger. I suppose waking up to an angry bus driver isn't the most exciting thing in this world. Factor in the fact that you are in lala land with your girlfriend who happens to be next to u. Well, the stunned look on that person's face is priceless lah. Then the bus driver started saying smth, from what i gather apparently the guy paid only 1.20 and i tink he sat pass the amount or something like that. I am quite shock with the memory of the bus driver lah.. what did that guy do when he board the bus lah? he slapped the bus driver as he paid his fare ah?or maybe he attempted to practice his bargaining skills with the bus driver ?
In the end, apparently i tink the sleepy guy won, cos the bus driver walked back to his throne with a can't say is happy face. Never knew that bus drivers have so good memory lah..

Anyway was talking to some people with regards on whats their take on relationships. Than after talking to them i come to asking-for-a-tight-slap-conclusion.The conclusion is , everyone is different. It may seem like a cliche to many but i personally feel that not many can really apply it. As everyone know that there is no two same person in the world , and scienctifically its proven that genetically identical twins are different also. So i shall not touch on that. Rather i would like to say its because that everyone is different , it will be easy to manage a relationship if u cannot afford to accept your other half's faults and habits, and expect to change for you. Don't use urself as a benchmark to gauge your other half, and expect that your other half to be like you and understand you always. We are all different. I remember reading it somewhere that its because we are different , it makes the relationship a very challenging thing in life. Its like chemistry i suppose, because we are all different reagents and mixing each of reagent with another we get a different product. We never know what we get until we try it. Some people tend to be more resistive even in a relationship, however, like in chemistry, if u add a little reagent you might get a different product from adding a lot. In a relationship, adding reagents is liken investing in a relationship, if you are only willing to invest a little you might not see the result you expect. A very nice example would be the very common NaOH addition to test for cations, about how the result is like when you add a little and when you add excess. Of course i also understand that sometimes add a little is enough to see a visible effect. Like the ever blasting caesium with water. I suppose thats why people use the word chemistry to describe relationship. haha...all the above is wat i think ...any comments please do feedback to me..haha

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Sunday, 14 January 2007(G)

Yes jj..its long enuff.. Anyway a simple comment to ur post, i suppose at the end of the day its not really making a scapegoat out of someone, but rather, it all stems from the person trusting the other guy well enough to help him. If the other guy pushes the blame to this guy when trouble occurs, than only thing that can be said is the person got no one to blame but himself for being so trustful. It may sound a bit harsh but this is the said reality of life. The guy will have to pay for a lesson than. Like what my father always says, "You can either learn it the hard way or the easy way."(naturally he will use it when he is losing to an argument with me but thats besides the point) In the case, that guy is learning via the hard way. Life itself is a teacher , which teaches us important lessons, like in school there are some lessons that you will not like and may even hard, its the same for life i suppose. Responsibility is not something u just say when everything is fine, rather its what u do when something really happen. If that guy has to shoulder all the blame, in the view of optimist , he will know who are his true friends i suppose, a friend in need is a friend indeed. As for you, helping is no doubt good, but in my honest opinion , why should you embroiled yourself into this trouble. Are you sure you are considered helping him? I wld feel that u will be making a recipe for a big disaster for yourself. In future should a similar thing happen again, people will expect you to help, and then u will just put yourself nicely into a wonderful mess. Rules are set for a reason and that reason is not be bent. The person should already be of mature age, and should be able to take up the responsibility be it his fault or not. Life is like that, even in adult phase.

That aside, nth much happened to me as compared to jj, my life is duller. Managed to skip a massive jam on friday by skipping a lecture at some god forsake hour, came up with one of the stations questions to kill the incoming freshies. Ameet begins to think that i m innately sadistic for all the weird ideas i have. haha... in all sense life still goes on as per normal. i still get caught in jam in the morning regardless of wat bus i took. Lectures still as boring. Lecturers still as incomprehensible. I am still sadly single.I am still ugly and fat. and i am still waiting for singapore pools to wake up their idea and gimme the millions that i so deserve. Tutorials still look equally daunting and i am still equally clueless about wats going on. hatred still continues to burn in me even though its a few months since its last ignited. Anger comes and go, sorrow no longer hold on to me, happiness is ard somewhere but being so elusive i hv yet to find it. in the end i suppose, in this sad sad world there is only one person who can make us happy or sad or angry and that would be ourselves. We control our emotions, we choose whether we let people make us angry or sad. Thats why when u are sad just will urself to be happy, not easy but not impossible also .

In a nutshell, "There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will." .. Ciaoz

Friday, January 12, 2007

Responsibilities(J)

Responsibilities are part of our life.
We all take up a certain amount of responsibilities
some more, some less...
When something happens, we might be made the scapegoat to take on full responsibilities for some bad incident.
i agree we shld ans for our faults but then, wat if it happened while trying to help ppl.
it will be realli unfair to put the blame on the person but then we can't blame the ppl for asking him to help, coz eventually he was the one whu agreed to helping.
no, i am not involved in such incidents but i am seeing quite a number of it.
it gives mi a helpless feeling... being indirectly involved in the incident, i cannot ask the ppl involved to share the responsibilities. And if i step in, there will be a lot repercussions that will follow.
If the same things that happen to mi, i will of coz hope that someone will help mi...
but will the help be then expected for the next guy...
Being responsible for our own actions will force us to think and plan our moves...
but once u expect ppl to help share responsibilities, u might just be that less careful going abt doing things and there is a chance of bad incidents happening.
Some ppl may even insist i should step in to help, making things easier this time and state my rules that i will not step in again. Seriously, I cannot make decisions on my own as well and then there are really a lot irritating adminstrative problems. Well, i hope that everything will turn out fine eventually.. I can only hope so...
feeling realli helpless that even my sister can sense that i am troubled....
Maybe all this things are insignificant to worry abt, coz i am not involved. But i always like to see things frm other ppl's pt of view and it is hard not to get involve also... my bad pt...

oh well, maybe a miracle will happen tml... haha...
signing off....
J
(PS to G, long enuff?)

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Wednesday 10 January 2007(G)

After my third day of bus riding, i can only conclude that bus takes a lot of time and the degree of uncertainty is so much higher lah.. Yesterday i took the same bus i reached school at around 9.40am...today i took the same bus and reached school at 9.20am. Bus is no doubt cheaper though.. i suppose thats whats known as paying for the "premium" when you take train i suppose. Today something gross happened on the bus on my way home. Someone suddenly just vomited some liquid out at the exit door. Liquid= watery substances .. think he live on water ah? Reminds me of the merlion lah... And to think he was sitting next to me earlier on.. i think the sight of me make him sick..haha..don't want to imagine wat will happen if he started his merlion performance when he is sitted next to me.. i tink in a blink of the eye i would be at the back of the bus(considering that i m sitted right at the front of the bus) Than i think one of the most contagious think is not yawn but vomit lah. Dunno wat is wrong wif me i just sit and stare at him slowly regurgitating all the fluid out .. I think i m siao lah... watching in disgust but continue watching ..somehow i tink its weird that some one only vomit some liquid out w/o food... after that i feel like puking also..haha got sick from all the watching...

That aside.. had attended quite a few lectures and realised that some lecturers are not bad .. some are just too powerful for my level.. I have this lecturer who speaks in such a strong accent that i think should i listen to his webcast in speed X1.5 it will be in tamil instead of english.I think i cannot agree more to the uncyclopedia webby with their statement about NUS lectures "Lectures are conducted in a language that is described as incomprehensible at worst and sleep-inducing at best." Well still got a few more modules to experience hopefully it will turn out well...PLEASE!!!!!!!!!*Cross fingers*

School aside, just watched finish the entire series of 微笑pasta.. very nice show i must say its very nice .. the show teaches u abt the simplicity about life and how ignorance is really a bliss. I suppose when you trust everyone, life would be simpler and better, the show also showed the power of family of how a family that really believes in you can help you achieved what u never know u can achieve. Still remember something that was said in the show by the female lead,about why is yesterday not today, tml not today but today is today.. at times when u are worried about something like a performance that you will be performing or an examination do you also ever have this feeling?haha. Believe in yourself is what the entire show is trying to say i suppose. To quote from the show " 只要笑一笑,没有什么 事情 過 不了".So smile and be happy!

To conclude, saw this pharse earlier on today. [Insert religion] is like a good flouride toothpaste. You can look at it and examine it. But it does not prevent cavities as long as you don't apply it.

Busy over Nothing..... (J)

oh well, sch reopens liaoz
I am still trying to get back into the mood of studying
seems quite hard though... realli hard
a lot of books to buy also... going broke sia
but then, this sem i am going to work hard.. YESH I AM..!!
haha.. well, will haf to wait and see also...

sometimes worrying over something is quite a waste of time, especially things that dun really need ur worrying.... hmmm i sound a bit confusing? means that the something will solve by itself lahz.... haha...

well, enjoy the sch life.. back in sch liaoz... :)

signing off.....
J

Monday, January 8, 2007

Monday, 8 January 2007(G)

First day of school!!! Finally school started. Woke up exceptionally early today so that i can try out how long it will take me to travel by bus to school in my aim in saving $$$$$$$$ by only buying bus concession. But to my greatest dismay , it did not really turned out as well as i thought it would. In a nutshell, i am suddenly grateful to the implementation of COE. I never knew there is so many cars in singapore, and also never knew that so many cars love to clog up the road at the same time lah. The bus that i am onboard, literally stopped at EVERY stop lah... Either the bus driver had an agenda against me or the other passengers are just trying their very best to make sure that they take an eternity of my time lor. And every time the bus turn into the bus stop , it takes like 10000 eons to get out of it, thanks to the zillions of car that happens to be on the road at the same time. Ok maybe i am a little exaggerating not 10000 eons but 10000 eons minus one day... Seriously hor, if there is no COE, i think i walk to school would be even faster than the bus lah.. i can picture the bus just stuck there FOREVER.. Its like with COE the bus is like stopping every half minute or less.. Its as though the bus driver is trying to strike up a conversation with every driver on the road lah....Thats it, i am so trying another bus route tml...

Luckily my trip back was smoother than tofu i must say, when i reach the school bus stop , 151 came, and just as i alighted from 151 , 852 came , and when i reach yishun interchange 804 also came.. wat more can i ask for except less passengers boarding/alighting, less red lights, less traffic ONLY not too much rite?

Bus and traffic aside, on saturday went out for dinner with Jeff and marilyn at suntec, back to the place affectionately known as "The herbal chicken shop". Jeff was talking about his trip to taiwan and he said something about the luckiest number in chinese is actually not 8 but 13 and 9 and the unluckiest number is 10. And how the number of storkes in your chinese name affects ur luck somehow. Than i go count the number of storkes in my chinese name which adds up to 4+6 = 10 = unlucky=cursed=chiuz!!!!! well to console myself i suppose my name itself is lucky so it can counter balance it..haha cos one of the word is 吉 which happens to mean prosperity..haha its the same chinese word u can find in hong baos..haha..
Anyway talking about this, i remember one of my fren telling me about zodiac signs all those are merely having the forer effect. To clear your doubt, The Forer effect refers to the tendency of people to rate sets of statements as highly accurate for them personally even though the statements could apply to many people. Do you agree?haha i certainly do but somehow i think i have mastered the highest level of self deceit.. haha...my little hope and glow in this dark and sad world ...=)..

Saturday, January 6, 2007

Saturday, 06 January 2007 (G)

Back from hong kong for a week +++ liaoz, but somehow still can't get jong kong out of my mind. Apparently almost everything in singapore reminds me of a little hong kong.I think maybe because i m a mountain tortoise.. I think the phrase " You will miss something only when you no longer possess it" applies to me in this case. I can still remember the strong feeling i had when i was about to fly off to hong kong. I just suddenly had this feeling of unknown worriness , rather worried about flying off to a foriegn land, worried that i might not make it back , worried about the uncertainty, can't bear to leave singapore. In short lucky no one came and send me off, i might just feel much worse. I think i m just a little toad at the bottom of the well who is worried about leaving the well to explore whats outside , choosing the safety and familiarity of the small constrain space at the bottom of the well. When i reached hong kong, somehow i managed to see glimpses of singapore in almost everything there. Then now i see flashbacks of hong kong nowadays , for everything from train to food.

For the past few days, i went to minds cafe to play some interesting games. Namely niagara, democrazy, employee of the month and pit.. i like democrazy a lot its about voting for different laws. The gameplay of it is quite interesting i must say. At the end i thought i won with the most points, thats until my friend pointed out one law that was in place, " You add the points of the player to your left at the end" and i am sitting next to someone with the 2nd least number of points and in the end the person on my right(aka the person who pointed out that law to me..ARGH!!!!!) won...Quite an interesting game. Employee of the month is also another worth playing game since u do need to take note of what is happening.. i lost terribly in that game, in the only had one point, BUT i m not the lowest..hahahahah... i got one friend who had negative two points.. apparently he is so not a good employee...

I also went to a plant visit at jurong island. To say that the lectures there are boring is just a HUGE understatement lah.. factoring the fact that i had less than 5 hrs of sleep b4 is sure not helpful, and i don't even want to imagine mk and adec who did not even hv a good sleep, but judging their zombie-like behaviour and blatant sleeping when sitting literally under the noses of the lecturers, you can guess.

Anyway before i end my post, would like to talk about a song that i heard and find it very meaningful. The title of the song is 最初的梦想. The first few lines of the song goes like this:

如果骄傲没被现实大海冷能拍下
又怎会懂得要多努力
才走得到远方
如果梦想不曾坠落悬崖
千钧一发
又怎会晓得执着的人
有隐形翅牓
把眼泪装在心上
会开出勇敢的花


To loosely translate to english, it would be
If proudness is not brought down by the cold reality,
Then how would you realise that only with hard work can bring you forward.
If dreams do not "fall off from a cliff",
Then how do you know that those who tightly hold on to their dreams possesses invisble wings at the crucial moment?
Plant the seeds of tears into your heart,
And it will bloom into flowers of courage.

I find it quite motivating and true i suppose. Think i will end my entry with another line from the song.

沮丧时总会明显感到孤独的重量
多渴望懂得的人给些温暖借个肩膀

Which should mean, when you are down , the loneliness that usually comes alongs will weigh you down. How nice it would be to have someone who realises that provide some warmth and a shoulder?

Thursday, January 4, 2007

Thursday 04 January 2007(G)

First post of the year!! Back to boring life after i return from hong kong. Nothing interesting happened to me since i am at home most of the time. Last friday went to ECP for night cycling... in the end i lost my butt halfway... the seats of bicycle are seriously not the most comfortable seats around lah... sitting on them for half an hour cycling.. u just slowly feel your butt slowly drawing away from you.. and soon u can no longer feel your butt aka lost your butt... in conclusion i think that the person who invented sofa must have thought of the idea after he participate in some bicycle competition or night cycling.

The past few days i am also trying to readjust my diet. Cos during the period when i m in hong kong, i have been eating and eating and eating and eating and eating and eating and eating (u get my idea i hope).. one day eat so many meals... cfm grow fatter than fat! Not easy readjusting .. keep getting hungry!! like withdrawal symptoms... lucky i managed to overcome that and readjust back..phew!


Recently, i also went out with my campmates and learnt that a few other campmates are already fathers already!! OMG all of them are just so responsive to the government lah... lookis like hopeless cases like me is time to advertise on newspaper to look for my other half!! If not in no time i will be a lao chu nan liaoz...ARGH!!!

Finally,was reading the comic "Liar Game" and i totally like it lah...Very nice i must say, the writer is quite good in mind games i must say to produce such a book.. the book got a lot of tricks which i myself couldn't think of....maybe because i m getting senile liaoz..Anyway with regards to the the topic on "Liar Game" i think i would to steal a joke from my fren's blog to show the idea of the comic...what may seem obvious may not necessary be.....enjoy..

A blonde walks into a bank in New York City and tells the loan officer that she's going to Europe on business for two weeks and needs to borrow $5,000.

The loan officer says the bank will need some kind of security for the loan, so the blonde hands over the keys to a new Rolls-Royce, which is parked in front of the bank. She has the title and everything checks out, so the bank agrees to accept the car as collateral for the loan.

As the blonde leaves with the money, the bank's president and officers enjoy a good laugh at someone using a $250,000 Rolls as collateral against a $5,000 loan. An employee moves the Rolls into the bank's underground garage and parks it.

Two weeks later the blonde returns and repays the $5,000 and the interest, which comes to $15.41.

As he hands the keys back to the blonde, the loan officer says, "Miss, we are very happy to have had your business, and the transaction has worked out very nicely. But we are a little puzzled. While you were away, we checked your records and found that you are a multimillionaire. Why would you bother to borrow $5,000?"

The blonde replies, "Where else in New York City can I park my car for two weeks for only $15.41 and expect it to be there when I return?"