Sunday, 29 April 2007 (G)

Got bored of memorizing for part tech..taking a breather here... for the past few days and from what i foresee on 26th may i will go throught the 5 stages of grief..
Five Stages Of Grief
Denial and Isolation.At first, we tend to deny the loss has taken place, and may withdraw from our usual social contacts. This stage may last a few moments, or longer.

Anger.The grieving person may then be furious at the person who inflicted the hurt (even if she's dead), or at the world, for letting it happen. He may be angry with himself for letting the event take place, even if, realistically, nothing could have stopped it.

Bargaining.Now the grieving person may make bargains with God, asking, "If I do this, will you take away the loss?"

Depression.The person feels numb, although anger and sadness may remain underneath.

Acceptance.This is when the anger, sadness and mourning have tapered off. The person simply accepts the reality of the loss.


one word sums everything up...HAIZ

Tuesday 24th April 2007(G)

Sad and depressing day today. After today's paper i m like hit by a comet totally in a state of shock and blank. Think going to da pao this module.. At any rate i m like the pao's ingredient lah.. totally minced and grinded liaoz.. haiz so depressing.. well.. in all sense i suppose i can only hope. Tml is a new day and a new paper and another chance to be minced and grinded again... haiz

Saturday 21 April 2007(G)

Today is the first day of my exam aka as the first day that i will be slaughtered and bleed...will bleed until 4th May 2007, hopefully i got enuff blood to last until then... Was studying in school yesterday and on my way home, i asked mk who he think among us will be first to get married.. his reply was either jj... cos jj seems more traditional..haha.. i somehow agree with him and since jj is always so 'popular' with girls i tink the wedding bells will be ringing for him soon. Somehow i am quite interested in how would the significant halves of us would be like.. hmm.. must make a reunion date one day set in 10 yrs later and see see..haha.. ok wish me luck for the exams!!

Wednesday 18th April 2007

Went for screening yesterday and drew 5 vials of blood costing only 4 bucks each(i m being paid that is)... Apparently the transport fee is worth more than my blood.. fuel is more expensive than blood lor... in short i m so cheap....

Been studying for the past 2 days..sadly nth much achieved... think this sem is going to die like nv die b4... like my 2125 test last week... tink i chiuzed to the max liaoz... totally charred liaoz..haiz...

On sunday i went to watch the play , " Blithe Spirit", its very very funny lah...liked it very much although got some parts they used chime english above my lvl.. dun really understand..but its very funny.. gd play..haha

Now really in need of a miracle..hopefully it comes to me please!!

Saturday 14th April 2007(G)

Friday the 13th..unlike hb..its an unlucky day for me.. tink i chiuzed the 2125..haiz.. dunno why feeling depress the entire day.. no mood to do anything even sleep, got sort of spirited away kind of feeling, like my soul and body not attached like that..sianz.. saw smth interesting on my way home...it was raining cats and dogs when i went home , some how i tink the camera at the traffic light junction went bonkers, it juz keep flashing..in the end the traffic light area is like disco lah..
ok reading week approaches, better start studying..wish myself luck!! Good Luck George!!!

Wednesday 11 April 2007(G)

I think i should just slap myself... Really must be careful for what you wish for...haha..my last post i read wat a boring day it is..then today all the exciting stuff happens...First and foremost, i lost my hp or rather someone took it(dammit!!), found a jacket, placed my textbook in school. I tink i m still considered lucky lah.. too much of a conincidence that i found a jacket below the table i lost my phone.. maybe the person who took my phone left me that jacket as a barter trade(or rather i prefer to believe in this)..haha .. well at least its not like i lost my phone and got nth back...So it means that people are not all evil lah.. although take my things still giv me back soemthing in return.. so i suppose thats not as bad rite? i mean it could be he took and nv leave anything behind or its my laptop thats gone wif the wind... of cos the person who took my hp is not the jacket's owner.. well only thing i can say is the person who owned the jacket is at a losing end bah..haha (simply evil of me no wonder hp got stolen..haha) i mean the one who stole my hp got the phone, i got the jacket and the one who lost the jacket is juz filled with unluckiness..haha (SORRY!)
Maybe losing the phone is a blessing in disguise..haha .. at least i noe that people around me still cared for me..haha .. so life is still all hopeful.. and although i m angry wif the person who took my phone but then hey life still goes on.. getting angry with the person is not going to let me find back the phone..haha ..so why bother?..

Tuesday 10Th April 2007(G)

Did the impossible today, lost my handphone in the LT without even lifting my butt from the seat.. haha...thanks to the Sharp eyes of hb's famous eyes, i managed to find my hp..THANKS hb..haha.. today is rainy, mood is moderate, nth gd or bad is happening. Life is just so boring isn't it... nth exciting happened today, no latest gossip to update.. this is seriously bad for sagittarius like me, cos i tend to look for new things and look for excitement and the latest gossips, hate to be bored... but all this dullness coupled with the approaching exams is seriously not helping and killing me ...currently i only feel stress and stupidity and more stress and stupidity... currently only got one word in my mind ...HOW????

Monday 9th April 2007

School (esp homework/test/assignments ) SUCKS.. to tink at 1.45am i m still awake trying to solve 2116..one out of the 2 questions is simply ridiculous lah... currently my mood is frisky and easily agitated!! How to spot if i m frustrated.. If you notice that i keep typing dots (aka ....) that means that i m quite frustrated liaoz... if i reached the point of morse code means something is wrong... if after the morse code i juz die off.. mean i already reached the max.. sometimes also mean i m exasperated liaoz... let me cool off b4 talking to me ..thanks..haha
lets juz hope that i can pull thru for the coming exams PLEASE!!!

Sunday 08 April 2007(G)

Went tomb sweeping/washing/painting/pruning on friday(aka good friday) meet up with my relatives. Heard a joke there, about a man who bought a Luo Han Fish,which costed a few thousands, and brought it home. After which he set off to buy a fish tank to contain the fish. When he reached home, dinner is served. While he was eating the dinner , he asked his wife, what fish are we eating? The wife just replied, the one you brought home today.
Moral of the story, we are practical people, ornamental fish is not as useful as cooked fish.

At the graveyard, surprisingly it wasn't as crowded as past years, the traffic flow is not as bad. Possible reasons, a) Good Friday, so chirstians will not go bah(but this is one of the least contributing factor) b) Its published on the newspaper that there is going to be a crowd( But knowing the Singaporeans attitude, i doubt this is one of the reasons that would deter people from going. I think we are those that love to go for those people squeeze people situations.) c) its Guan Ying Dan (aka The Goddess of Mercy's Birthday..most prob since those visiting the chinese cemetry should be the taoists or buddhist, and i learnt that those who prayed the goddess of mercy will not pray to the deceased on the same day so i tink most likely this could be the reason)
As usual the highlight of the tomb sweeping is the getting of 4 d numbers. Surprisingly my grandfather and grandmother gave similar numbers with only one number different ..haha.. sort of shocked when aunties when the first 3 numbers that they got from my grandmother is the same as the same 3 numbers given by my grandfather but in a different order..haha.
Talking about 4d some people may say that we are just compulsive gamblers..haha.. but i tink differently , rather i would say that is more of us being hopeful. Buy 4d is more like buying hope, not really buying it just for the money since we usually dun bet heavily usually is just less than 10 bucks and usually ibet..

Good Friday 6 April 2007(G)

Went to school to (of all things) play mahjong. first round won a bit second round lose it back..haha so not that bad lah.. hb kena saboed by paul to TRY a fisherman's friend.. haha after that according to hb i tink her throat is dying ... apparently fisherman and hb simply juz dun mix. Throughout the mahjong session nothing exciting really happened other than paul and his attempts to ensure that i will zi moso that i can win bigger than expected, me and my 2 tai life(how depresing rite???) , jj who won the max (but in the end overall(1st round + 2nd round) still lose =p[simply evil of me] , hb who complained that i just dun feed looked exceptionally happier during the 2nd round when she is not sitting after me(wonder why), our encounter with some dunno who after the 1st round and he asked paul what is he doing, and paul can giv the most curry puff like ans of "Closing the door" apparently i think the person can see that paul..haha...

I tried to reach home b4 1030 to watch the results of american idol but apparently i failed reached home at 1045!!!!! dammit. last night had a can be considered "formal" talk with someone over some matters.. can't really say something is resolved but i do feel much better after that(well, share burdens == half the weight ) I also realised that sometimes i do only look at things from my own point of view and nv realise that actually everyone else also faced with the similar problems .. well life goes on...

Wednesday 04 April 2007(G)

Compared to the tsunami of tests and assignments last week this week is considered boring. So had ample time to think of some matters that has been troubling me. Can just be summarized by one question, Should i just let go of my ego and take the first step back? A simple model answer would naturally be , Duh, of cos lah... But practically, its not as easy as it seems. Ego this 3 letter word people would say is worthless. Somehow ego is also the one of the few things in this world that managed to prove that worthless things sometimes do have its charms. Recently something happened, and i think should i back off first naturally it might turn for the better, but then again why should i? Lets face it lah i m just exceptionally unreasonable, people who know me should know this very well and might even experience it b4..haha.. for that i apologise first.. I am as unreasonable as (warning... insults follow..haha.. just a joke though don't take it to heart please..haha)

Junjie is honest and helpful(though sometimes white lies are invented for a reason and u are juz tooo helpful at times that u are becoming a vege head lah....)

Hongbee is hardworking ( though sometimes she work too hard to achieve goals like 43... please lah thats like wat we happily call in PDC as physically unrealizable.. for that u need more than magic dust, u need liposuction lah...so please be satisfied with wat u have.. if u need help in getting rid of that absurd idea just surf some websites showing Ethopia.. u will get the idea)

Paul is...erm...wanted to say innocent, angelic and some liek that, than i though of his 2 theorems namely the L theorem and stress balls... than ..ya..maybe not...so i think and think.. the most suitable one would be maybe he just give off some "aura" like he mentioned himself... not really what u can call X factor..more of P factor i suppose...haha

Ming Keong is confident about himself(sometimes hor have confidence in others also wun hurt esp lecturers and textbook [",])

Adec and his infectious humour and insight( but can be less insightful on stuff thats more "colourful" ..=p)

Jeff who is ever so staunch(though it may go against your commandmant of (Exodus 20:2-17 you shall have no other gods before me.)[seriously dunno how to quote this] but other religions also exist lah.. give and take a little)

In short, i am just totally made up of unreasonable genes, if u take me to go and boil i think u can get the bp of unreasonable(aka i m pure unreasonable).

Tuesday 03 April 2007 (G)

Went school today, feeling stupid as usual, achieved nth but aged, did nth but breathed and consumed more calories than i can possibly burn off, in short a wasted day. As i get closer and closer to the exam dates, i m feeling more and more stressed which manifest in the form of pimples!!!!! yucks.. Just learnt something new today, there is no such thing as fear of picture taking, was looking up the LONG list of phobias and their meanings and realised that there isn't any that is for photo taking. Got a lot of funny phobias like, the few ultimate ones,

Ithyphallophobia- Fear of seeing, thinking about or having an erect penis.(if guy then gone with the wind liaoz)

and also the opposite phobias
Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia- Fear of the number 666
versus
Hierophobia- Fear of priests or sacred things

and for the sadistic types
Hedonophobia- Fear of feeling pleasure.

and also
Nomatophobia- Fear of names. (for this i tink the person will just call the another person OEI)

Anyway, the reason why i am looking for the phobia of picture taking is because hong bee and paul(the smarties) are like so camera shy lah...

Monday 02 April 2007(G)

Just some observations i made on my way home today...

Firstly, somehow i dunno why those elderly that i see today, the way they flag a bus is quite cute. Instead of the usual raising your hand to 90 degrees , they raised their hand to 150 degrees, its like saying hi to the bus driver rather than flagging the bus lah.. At times i am quite tempted to "hi" back when i m on the bus seeing them do that through the window.. haha

Secondly, remember the the GP(general paper) essays we use to write during our jc days? One question they can ask is, "What is happiness?". Today i saw the defination of happiness lah.. can be expressed in a simple mathematical equation:

Man on bike standing in front of Pool of water + Moving Bus = Happiness

I saw this man on a bicycle waiting for the traffic light to change. In front of him is this big pool of water. My bus happily speed pass, i saw this tsunami of the same height as the man and bicycle saying hi and totally embracing that man lah.. thats like simply happiness...
For this case it can be upgraded to simply divine by just adding one more word, " Muddy" in front of the the word water.

Lastly, i went for a haircut before going home. Realised 2 things. One, how to know if your hair is long, if no matter how the barber cut and cut and u see no difference to your hair.. Its long period. Two, NEVER attempt to blow any stray strands of hair above your lip. I did that and end up blowing it into my nose.. nearly choked to death lah... dammit ..

Thats all for my boring day today...